Man, it's a tough question, when all you question is life's problems and your own personal issues. While you spend the time thinking about earthly things, there's never time to think about what's going on above you and out of your hands. I'm always concerned with things I can't even control. I don't know if that's a mistake or just the nature of a man who wants to have control over his life...
Plain and simple though, I don't, you don't, they Don't - have control over life and the happenings of daily life. Some things are put in your hands for you to deal with yourself, but there are those who can't even imagine how to begin dealing with.
I spoke to God yesterday, not face to face, but rather Heart-2-Heart. I know the man himself was listening because I felt him. I felt him, not in the room or in my head, but I felt him speaking within me. I now know...Everything will play out as it is best for me, and the same for you (whoever "you" may be).
A good friend left this earth yesterday, off to a better place on a one-way ticket. He was one of those cats that you always knew would make it somewhere, and it's crazy because 21 years old is too young to make that journey. I'm getting there myself in a few weeks, and just the thought of boarding the bus of no return is a terrible feeling. Rest in Peace Homie, aka "Mr. Eagles Fan" as I always used to call you on the Holmes hallways and study lounges.
Life is fragile, you know? Let God handle that, because if you have been worrying about it for so long, and still haven't fixed it.... It's not meant for you to fix, my friend.
Stay Easy.
John
